Tuesday, October 22, 2013

28 Days of Fit

Weight: 147.2 lbs
Body Fat %: 23.6%
Body Water %: 54.4%

Weight: 146.2 lbs
Body Fat %: 23.1%
Body Water %: 54.7%

Sooooo my goal to lose 6 lbs didn't happen. Not even close, really. I am tempted to push my weigh out til tomorrow so that I can rid myself do anything left from the weekend, but I'm sure the point is moot. 
I'm excited that I lost half a percentage of body fat and maintained my water- the higher the water the healthier you are. I also had some big running victories this month, including completing a route with my boyfriend in significantly less time that the prior try, running for 30 minutes consistently, and doing a 4.7 mile run by myself. 
Weight wise, I am disappointed. I really wanted to be at 22% body fat and 141-143 lbs. I think I was on track the first week, logging and keeping myself accountable, but after that I got busy and logging didn't seem like a priority.  It's also hard to write every day when nothing is going on. 

Well, I guess I have many more months ahead of me!

Friday, October 18, 2013

I have four days to lose 1lb.. If i do, I'll win my dietbet. I can do it... But it means no fun foods this weekend.

Monday, October 14, 2013

I am a little down on myself because the weight isn't coming off as easily as I would've hoped. I haven't been giving it 100% but I definitely haven't been going overboard with my eats. Maybe I need to ramp up the exercise again or get more strict with my carb intake. 

This weekend I went to the football game and I got super sunburned... I'm disappointed because I was planning to get Botox injections in my forehead but now I think it's a bad idea until the redness subsides. I'm young and not too wrinkly, but I know that Botox is something you can use as a preventative measure, and given my genetics I think it's a good idea to start early.  Maybe I'm just vain...I don't know, maybe it's a bad idea. When I was in college I went to a plastic surgeon to see if I could get liposuction, and I was probably 15 pounds lighter than I am now. Talk about good judgment right?

Today on the treadmill I had my best solo run ever. I ran four minute intervals at varying speeds with an average speed of 5 miles an hour for 48 minutes. I ended up running a total of 4.39 miles which is the longest I've ever run by myself!

I'm not exactly sure how much I weigh right now. I've been really full for a few days and so I want to wait until tomorrow to see if I've done some serious damage by not giving 100% to my weight loss goal. 

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Nothing to say today. I'm not even titling this post because it doesn't count!!

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

13 Days to Fit

I was so hungry this morning, I have no idea why. I drank 2 slim fasts... Which probably defeats the purpose but the protein was good. I went out to lunch and got a panini and apple slices, probably around 600 calories in total. Low country boil for dinner, and a 2.5 mile run. I think I went over calories but not by much. 

That's all for now 

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

2 weeks to Fit!

Cant believe it's already been 2 weeks, and I have 2 more to go!

I wish I had better news... When I stepped on the scale this morning I was at 147 again, so I'm not sure if that's bloating or fullness, or If I undid my hard work in the first week with my crappy work in the 2nd. 
I'll weigh in again tomorrow and hopefully the number will have budged a little!

I ran today for 30 minutes straight. I haven't done that in a while. It was on a treadmill, of course, but still great! My BFF is running a 5k on Thursday and it is a qualifier for the Peachtree Road race so I am really hoping she does well. I did the downhill 5K in August and finished in right under 30 minutes so if she can get anywhere close to that we will be in the same heat.

Today I told my boss that I will be moving from my current role in back into a role in that the practice.  I currently work for national, developing strategies and teaching development courses but I missed the technical aspects of a tax return. I really hope this is a good move. I talked to my boyfriend about it today and he didn't seem too enthusiastic.  Sometimes I don't feel that he listens to me or has empathy about how I'm feeling. I don't think I ask too much of him to want him to understand how I feel and listen when I need an ear,  but I think something happened growing up been made him less receptive to those types of feelings then other people are. Maybe it wasn't something discernible but perhaps just the culture he grew up in or the family environment. I will give him credit though he was really excited when I told him about my official acceptance of the new role, so I think what he can't handle is it wavering and the uncertainty it took to get there. Either way, it's really frustrating and I think I either need to learn to deal with it or figure out another solution, like leaning on my friends for advice and support.

Today's food was right around 1350 and the run was about 275. All in all a good day.

Monday, October 7, 2013

15 Days to Fit

I worked late tonight and didn't make it to the gym.  Not the best way to start off my "I'm getting back into the swing of things" week. I had an interview with  another company today... A big box store that sells home improvement supplies. I don't even want to explain what it is, because I don't want it. It doesn't have a lot of growth potential, so I think I'm going to  move back into the tax practice in my current firm. 

In other news, I purged tonight when I got home. I ate guacamole and hummus with tortilla chips, even though I already ate dinner. I just had to eat it, for no reason! I hate that about me. I know purging isn't good for me, I guess I felt like it was the only option. How do I stop these mini binges? I need to keep busy when I get home so I font feel the urge to eat. Even though my house is filled with delicious fruits, I still eat the junk. 

Boo. Nnpit happy today I guess

Sunday, October 6, 2013

16 Days to Fit

Well, I missed yesterday! Not surprising. It was a big football day and I drank ALOT. I didn't count calories at all so I'm no teen sure what the damage was. I did go to spin class in the am to try to mitigate, and I was relatively good today, including fitting in a 3 mile run. I haven't done calories today either, which I'm annoyed with myself about. 

I have low expectations for stepping up I'm the scale tomorrow. This week wasn't BAD but I wasn't in the zone like week 1.  I expect to be around 146 on Tuesday. I'm going to try 1400 calories per day and 2600 calories burned per week. I know I got burnt out I'm week one doing this but I was also way more in track. We will see... If I need to dial it back, I can dial the food back as well. Most important thing is NO CHOCOLATE AT WORK. 

Kitty, we made up and everything is fine. His apology was sort of a nonapology, but like you said, boys are stupid :P

Friday, October 4, 2013

17 Days to Fit

I am fighting with my love :( I was so excited that he was coming home today. But as soon as he got in the car he told me he wanted to listen the braves game. He thinks I'm ridiculous to be upset.  He didn't talk to me, he just sat in silence listening to the game. He didn't say thank you for picking me up. He acted like I was a taxi driver.

He said he knew that I would be bothered when he asked.  So why did he ask? Why couldn't he have explained himself. Like " hey babe, this is an important game and I don't want to miss the runs. Can we have it on low while we drive home?" I said that to him and he laughed at me.  I'm the crazy one. 

I was just so excited. I put cute clothes on and did my hair. He didn't even say thank you. I don't understand him. I had such high expectations. This was going to be a great night. 

Thursday, October 3, 2013

18 Days to Fit

One of my very best friends moved to Australia for work, and she has just returned.  When we were both in the US, she was my confidant when it came to weight loss and ED issues.  We worked together, and we would make diet plans together, and go to gym classes together, and really just keep each other accountable.  Australia has been good to her.  She is SO tiny, and when we saw each other this week she told me that she hasn't had time to be obsessive with counting calories or food intake.  Instead, she's eating a vegetarian diet, and doing bootcamp, and running a lot.  She said she eats a lot of food, but it's almost all clean, and she treats her body like it's meant to be treated.

Is it bad that I'm jealous?  Because I am totally jealous.  It's not that I want her to be fat, but we used to be the same size, and have the same struggles, and it just seems like she's done with all that, and I'm stuck in the same place.  I certainly don't obsess about starving myself like I used to, or go on crazy fasts and juice cleanses, so at least I'm headed in the right direction.  But I feel like compared to her I am so far behind.  I understand what I need to do... I just don't do it.

Like today we had a fire drill at work, and as a treat afterwards they were handing out frosted sugar cookies.  I had 2!  I'm on a strict diet!  Who does that?!  Then I saw a huge bag of candy and got two pieces.  My Australian friend and I went running today after work so hopefully that negated some of the damage.  I'm going to start running with her on a regular basis since she is in better shape than me.  I love running with my other friend, but I don't think I am progressing because she is still behind me in fitness.  I don't like running with my boyfriend because he is just too pushy and doesn't understand why I give up!

I haven't eaten dinner yet and it's already 8.  Kale salad or chicken? Or maybe I just need to pass on dinner since I had all that junk.  I ate at least 1460 calories today, so I'm definitely not sticking with the plan.

Boyfriend comes home tomorrow, I can't wait!  I'm working from home so I plan to work out before I pick him up from the airport, because afterwards we're grabbing pizza and wine and having a chill night.  I do have spin class plans on Saturday, so I expect to burn some great calories!

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

19 Days to Fit

Not much to report today. I'm having a tough time a work and it's running into my evenings. I'm lacking motivation and I need to get back in track. I went running this evening... 3 miles in 40 minutes. Really slow, but it's something. 

Need to figure out how to stop myself from snacking at night. It's ruining my plans. 

Kitty asked about Kale.  It's a bitter herb so it's not my favorite, but dressed right it's pretty tasty. My dressing is lemon juice, olive oil, garlic, and red pepper.  I dress my kale and let it sit for a bit. I add tomatoes, cucumbers, feta, olives and cashews. It's not traditional but I enjoy it. Whole foods makes a delicious kale salad with pine nuts and dried cranberries- delicious!

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

20 Days to Fit

I was right... When I weighed in this morning I was down .6 lbs, for a total week 1 loss of 1.2 lbs. so I am officially saying this week starts with 146.0, and I'd like to be 144.5 by next Monday.

I can't say everything went well today- my eats today were impeccable, until I got home and finished dinner... I may or may not have had A LOT of cereal.  At least my dinner was kale salad! I got changed into workout clothes and promised to go after my dinner settled, but then I didn't, and I'm not exactly sure why. I've just been laying around watching tv and missing boyfriend and folding laundry. Ugh, so lame. 

I guess I'll go to spin class tomorrow. I need to!

Monday, September 30, 2013

21 Days to Fit

Ugh. I am feeling bloated and the weight shows it. It's my "period" time (I don't have a period because I have an IUD, but I have Pms symptoms). Can I weigh in tomorrow instead?

Weight: 146.6 lbs (-0.6lb)
Body Fat %: 23.3% (-0.3%)
Body Water %: 54.6% 

I ate candy today at work and it ruined my calorie intake. Super food for dinner though- I had a kale salad with egg, olives, feta, tomato and cucumber! Yum yum 

I walked 3 miles after work. Tomorrow I will avoid the candy drawer, which should save me at least 200 calories!

Sunday, September 29, 2013

22 Days to Fit

So, today I end the first week and, I did really well! I am not 150% sure I was under my calorie goal for the week! but I know I was really close. I definitely hit the 2600 calorie burn goal, which was challenging but doable. 

This week, I've decided to lower both my food and exercise goals by 350 calories per week. I'll aim for 1,350 in eats every day, and an average output of about 325 calories per day. This will still put me at 1.5 lb loss this week if all goes to plan. 

I'm also going to try to increase my protein consumption as much as possible. I wish I was eating 40% of my calories as protein! but I know that's just aspirational. I have plenty of chicken and fresh veggies for meals this week, as well as 11 hard boiled eggs and slim fast protein powder!

This weekend felt like it was go go go. I wish I had had some downtime, because I anticipate this week being tough at work. I'm considering taking on a new position, or at least interviewing for one, because I'm just not satisfied with my current job. It's sad... You spend so much time at your job, it should really me something you enjoy.

I'm looking forward to weighing in tomorrow to see my true progress.  For now, here is a picture from last weekend at my very favorite Mexican restaurant. This is a good friend from out of town who visited for a concert!

Saturday, September 28, 2013

23 Days to Fit

I have had a very productive Saturday! I slept in til about 9, and went to the gym for spin class at 10:30. There was a substitute, and the class was SO hard! I really enjoyed it... It wasn't like I couldn't keep up, but I didn't outshine anyone, and I was huffing and puffing at the end. 

I met a girlfriend to get my nails done and my car washed, and then met another friend who has been living out of the country. It was really exciting to see her, and we went to out favorite pizza place, but I just got a soda and a water. 

I picked my boyfriend up from the airport and we had to go to a baby shower for a coworker. I couldn't believe how loud it was there. Children make SO much noise! I ate a burger and some pasta salad, but since I've been pretty good today I have room for dessert with the love! 

I think next week, I am going to reduce my calories to 1300 and reduce my cardio burn to 1900. Still the same effect, but I will get a little more of a break. 

Tomorrow I will make a plan for the coming week. Still 3 weeks to go before I weigh in, so that's plenty of time to tweak my plan to reach my goal as easily as possible 

24 Days to fit

I weighed again this morning, which I said I wouldn't do but I couldn't help it.  Still 144.something. Weird right? I guess the 149 was a fluke.

Calories today were over the top. 1900. I'll figure out how much that leaves for the rest of the weekend, but I don't think it's much. I did use a heart rate monitor while I was out doing my interval runs. According to the heart rate monitor I burned nearly 600 calories, but I just find that so hard to believe. Granted, my heart rate was very elevated. I did 1 min run 1 min walk over and over. My hip felt fine but my lungs were exhausted. 

I bought a huge produce basket at work. Only $18 and boyfriend said he would split it with me. He is gone all next week so I'm going to end up eating most of it myself!  I'll have to make a conscious effort to cook!

Friday, September 27, 2013

25 Days to Fit

This is going to have to be a very fast blog, because it's almost midnight and I need to get to bed!

I had a recruiting dinner for my firm this evening in Athens, GA, which is about 90 miles away from Atlanta.  I love going back to Athens because it's where I went to school, but the drive after a day of work is just no fun!

I worked from home today because of the recruiting event and because I had a dentist appointment this morning.  I didn't get to go walking/running on my lunch, but i did walk to and from the dentist, which is almost a mile and a half total.

Food today was:
Breakfast: Special K Drink (I am out of these now!)
Snack: Cafe Misto
Lunch: Lean Cuisine Chow Mein, chewy granola bar
Snack: Tortilla Chips and Salsa, Pear
Dinner: Balance Bar
Snack: Mixed Nuts

Total calories: 1260

Calories left to eat this week: 4,675 (1,550 on averaged this weekend)
Calories left to burn: 1,247 (415 on average this this weekend)

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

26 Days to Fit

I really need to not step on the scale every morning.  This morning I stepped on and it said 145.2!  Not POSSIBLE!  You don't lose 2 pounds in a day!  Crazy.  Maybe I'm dehydrated, maybe the scale is off, or maybe 147 was wrong!  Whatever it is, I'm going to weigh in again on Monday with a "real" weight, and see how I'm doing.

So, day 3 was hard.  I slept in, so I had a late breakfast, and then I didn't snack before lunch.  I think that caused an issue, because after lunch I was feeling some cravings. It was almost like I just wanted to put food in my mouth.  I was a little bored at work, which could have had something to do with it as well.

There was a birthday, and I didn't go to the cake celebration, but I did get some leftover frosting.  I think it was only a few tablespoons, but it was still NOT part of the plan.  I was disappointed in myself, but given that I've been under my calorie goal for the last two days, I'm not too disappointed.  I think I can bounce back and be successful the rest of the week.

My hip is feeling sore after yesterday's run, but I need to get in some calorie burn today to keep on top of this week.  I plan to let my dinner digest for about 30 minutes, and then use the elliptical for 45 minutes.  Low impact will be good, and I can go easy if I need to.

Tomorrow I am working from home because I have a dentist appointment in the morning and a recruiting event in the evening.  I'll be gone at the recruiting event from 4-11pm, and of course, there will be food and alcohol provided from 8:00-9:30.  I believe it will be a buffet/appetizer type of dinner, which is the worst kind.  Over exposure to food drains my will power.  I can say no the first 2 times, but if it's there for 2 hours, I'm afraid I'll indulge.  I plan to eat a snack before I hit the road at 4, and bring a Balance bar with me.  This protein bar doesn't taste the best, but I think it will fill me up if I eat it right before 8.  I'll make sure to have logged all my calories so I know where I'm at before I get to the buffet, and I'll sit facing away from it if possible.

Miranda, I found a protein drink from Slim-fast that has 20 grams protein.  I think I'll buy those for the rest of this month.  I like the special K ones, but I just want to try to up my protein intake and see how I do.  I definitely don't want to eat chicken for breakfast!

Today's intake: 
Breakfast: Special K drink 
Lunch: Hard Boiled Egg and Chicken Caesar salad
Snack: hard boiled egg, frosting and carrots
Dinner: veggie burger with a slice of cheese and salsaon an English muffin.

Total calories: 1395

Calories left to eat this week: 5,935
Calories left to burn this week: 1,775 (haven't worked out yet, but I assume this will be 1,375 when I get back)

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

27 Days to Fit

Yesterday's weight was at 149. I weighed in after work, and it had been some time since I weighed in, so I didn't have a great idea of where I should be.
This morning I wanted to weigh again to capture my body fat % and here is what I came up with:
Weight: 147.2 lbs
Body Fat %: 23.6%
Body Water %: 54.4%

If this is correct, then I think I should start my 6 lb goal from here.  But what if I'm dehydrated? I will say that an end weight of 141.2-143 on October 22nd will be considered as hitting my goal. Think that's fair?

I read a small article in Women's Health that stated "for optimum fat loss, aim for 30 grams of protein within 30 minutes of waking up." I KNOW that when I eat protein I am less likely to snack. And when I eat breakfast, I'm more balanced throughout the day. But 30 grams?! How do I manage that?
I looked in my fridge and I have hard boiled eggs (6g), Special K protein drinks (10g), milk (8g), and Greek yogurt (13g). If I eat 3 of the 4 for breakfast, I'd be close... But that's a lot of food!

Maybe I need to incorporate meat into my mornings, or find a drink with more grams. Thoughts?

Today's workout: Jogging and walking.  With my hip issues, I need to take it easy and avoid hurting myself, so today I ran a total of 2 miles at a 4.5 mile/hour pace.  I feel like some people could walk at that pace!  The last half mile my hip felt like it was talking to me, but I'm glad I finished!  It was a little disappointing to only get to 350 calories when I was on the treadmill for 60 minutes, but I guess that's how it works!

Today's intake: 
Breakfast: Special K drink 
Snack: hard boiled egg
Lunch: Lean Cuisine French Bread Pizza
Snack: hard boiled egg and carrots
Dinner: chicken breast with a slice of cheese on an English muffin.

Total calories: 1220

Weekly Calorie Goal Weekly Burn Goal
               9,800                2,600
Monday              (1,250)                  (475)
Tuesday              (1,220)                  (350)
Calories Left to Eat Calories Left to Burn
               7,330                1,775

Monday, September 23, 2013

28 Days to Fit

I recently got injured. About 3 weeks ago I decided to try some daredevil stunts because everyone else was doing it, and I bruised my head, arm, and hip.  I had to head to the doctor for some serious painkillers because the bruising kept getting worse and I was having trouble walking. During this time, I was also working some very long hours, and not taking care of myself the way I know how to.

Fast forward to today and I've gained back the weight I initially lost and am out of shape from being so immobile. I've decided to spend the next 4 weeks taking care of myself; treating my body like it is important to me, and ensuring that my injury heals properly and without delay. I am going to spend the next 28 days dedicated to my health and wellness, which means putting my body and mind before work, date nights and happy hours. 

Will it be easy? No. I'm a social person who loves to spend time with friends, and I enjoy eating at new restaurants and celebrating a Georgia Bulldog win with some beer. I also am driven to work hard, and long hours comes with my profession. I'm aware of the obstacles, and I am up for the challenge. 

My current weight is 149. My goal is to lose 6 lbs in the next 4 weeks. I don't have any plans to starve myself or go to drastic measures. I don't see myself exercising every day, or NEVER eating a piece of chocolate, but I do believe that you can do and endure ANYTHING for 28 days, and this is very important to me. 

I'll be logging in every day to send an update of what I'm doing, how I'm eating and most importantly how I'm feeling. 

To maintain my current weight, I would need to consume approximately 1,800 calories per day. A deduction of 750, which would equate to 1.5 lbs per week would put me at 1,050, which is too low. Instead, my goal will be to eat an average of 1400 calories per day (or 9,800 per week in total), and burn an average of at least 340 calories each day (or 2,600 calories per week).

When you do that math, it seems simple..  I know I'll have some slip ups, but I plan to identify trouble areas and plan ahead. 

Today's workout: spin class. First one since the accident- I plan to take it easy. 

Today's intake: 
Breakfast: Special K drink 
Snack: hard boiled egg
Lunch: Chicken Caesar salad
Snack: raspberries and carrots
Dinner: boca burger with a slice of cheese on an English muffin.
Snack: 1 piece of dark chocolate and a Greek yogurt

Total calories: 1250

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Checking in. I'm around. Still sort of reading when I think about it. Busy season at the office so I resolve to be better in the fall. 

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

I really wish I was blogging more. I don't know how much of the old crew are still around, or even how you get new followers haha. I guess I should be blogging for myself not for anyone else!!

I blogged last month about dietbet, a competition I joined when you pay $25 and bet against yourself to lose 4% of your body weight. I made it to the end and I won! I lost a little bit more... Low carb diet and lots of running!  It helped that I was running most days to train for the Peachtree Road race.  Unfortunately I gained all the way I lost back over Fourth of July and my trip to my old college town to celebrate my 2 year anniversary. So I'm back at it...low-carb diet started yesterday and I'm going to try to keep up the running as much as possible. 
The 10K was a huge success... I ran the race in 1 hour and 19 minutes. I keep feeling the need to tell everyone that I ran with a slow friend... I mean, I did run with a slow friend, and I wasn't exhausted during the run at all, but  I am not sure I could have finished in the same pace on my own because I'm so wrapped up in my own head and usually sabotage myself. Still working on it!

Monday, June 17, 2013

Not a lot going on.  Lot of running.... But also a good amount of eating. I think I may have lost a little weight, as I'm avoiding dessert as much as possible, which has never been a priority before. 
I'm traveling again this week, and my goal is to run 9 miles while I'm out of town. Sunday I did 3.1 and today 2.6, so I don't have far to go and maybe I need to increase the goal to make it more challenging. 
I'm with a lot of coworkers this week, so there is a lot of drinking. That's hard when you're watching what you ingest... But I guess that's why I run

There are a few people on the trip who really rub me the wrong way. One is a girl who has absolutely no interest in bring friendly or social. She doesn't care to be my friend, or anyone else's for that matter. She seems like a loner. I guess I just don't like what i don't understand. I crave being social.  Another guy is just so annoying I could stick a pencil in my ear listening to him. Today I made a list of all the questions he asked. It was very long. 

Ok that's it for now. I wish I had something more interesting to say.  Oh wait, I went to the Grand Canyon this weekend and it was the coolest thing I had ever seen in my life. I will try to attach a picture. I hiked 2 miles in and 2 out. Exhausting but worth it!

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Google Reader is going away soon, and I'm not sure how to read my blogs anymore. Do you all just log into blog spot?

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Today I heard about a site called DietBet.  They host 28 day challenges and if you hit the target goal, you win your money back and then split the pot with the other winners. If you don't hit your target, your money goes into the pot for the winners. 
I signed up for the Blogilates challenge, which starts June 1st. It's $25 to join and  the goal is 4% weight loss. I think this is exactly what I need to motivate me. It's a small amount of money, but money is always motivating, and I was just talking about how I need to work on being good on weekends. If you're interested, here is the link... http://bit.ly/118hb0d

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

First, a thank you to Kitty and Miranda for being my friends. It's weird that I don't even know what you look like and I think of you as people I truly trust...
Second, the food as fuel update. I had a small break from traveling and visited Steven at his house for his birthday. Monday morning I decided to weigh myself and assess the damage. I never weigh on Mondays because I feel like there is residual weekend water weight you have left to lose, but I had no choice as I wanted to weigh before I flew to Charlotte.
Now, this is a lot. And I'm not going to rationalize that because its no where close to goal. But if I can not weigh in for a month and still weigh in at 149.8 on a Monday I think I'm doing pretty good!
Maybe I'm really a little less than that since I was holding on to weekend weight.... But regardless that's what I weighed while counting calories for an entire year... And now I kind of feel free

I'm going to keep telling myself to eat food that makes me feel good, and I'll weigh in again soon for a progress update.

Saturday, May 11, 2013

Just another thought... It bothers me that some of my readers are concerned about my relationship with Steven. This is a place I use to vent, and it kind of hurts that I'm not allowed to so that without hearing that I've possibly made a mistake about him. Perhaps it's something I just need not to talk about here. Or maybe I need to write more often about the wonderful parts of our relationship.
I'm having a hardish week. Work stuff mostly that I don't want to talk about.

I haven't weighed myself in nearly a month- I think this is some type of record. I brought my scale over to my bfs house and I forgot to bring it back. I haven't been over there often and I always forget to grab it. I've also stopped counting calories, at the request of my counselor. She thinks maybe I should focus on eating food that makes me feel good instead of constantly stressing about how much goes into my body and freaking out when it's too much.
I'm kind of scared. What if this causes me to gain!? I really have been considering food as fuel for the last few weeks, and making choices not based on calories but instead what I need. Obviously this doesn't work for every meal or every occasion, but it's definitely a different mindset and an interesting twist to my already stressful life.

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

I've stuck with insanity for almost 2 weeks! I have one day left before I weigh in again and redo all the fit test activities so I can track my progress... To be honest I'm just really proud I've stuck with it this long and haven't missed a workout.

My running had been put on the back burner and that's not good because I have to train for the 10k. Boyfriend and I are considering just doing one month of Insanity and then starting to run everyday instead.

Last Saturday I had enough time to do the Insanity exercise and run/walk 3.5 miles... But then I had Mexican for dinner. Haha, always a little off track.

So speaking of my boyfriend, he and I have been arguing a lot recently. I think it might have to do with my new birth control... I've been feeling really needy and like I'm not getting any attention and I'm working so much harder than he is at being the best partner I can be. When I think about it rationally, I do believe he is neglecting me a little...but I think it is not as bad as in my head. He is in a busy time at work, and I'm in a stressful time at work. I make up these crazy scenarios I'm my head about how he is so mean to me and never listens, and I completely forget that he buys soda for himself and let's me drink them all, and always offers to drive when we go out.

I think we need some alone time... Busy season at work is almost over, but until then, I'm shooting for a "just us" date this weekend at a new restaurant.

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Interesting... The past two days I have been eating breakfast- low sugar oatmeal with peanut butter... And I have been eating way more food overall. Is that because eating breakfast gets your metabolism up and working? Anyway, it's annoying.
I took too much Ritalin yesterday and couldn't sleep, so today was absolutely miserable. I tried to come home early but my roommate was here. Can't wait to move out... Only a few weeks til my own place!!

Monday, April 1, 2013

Last week was exciting because I finally saw a dip in the weight.  This weekend Iwas decent, but not great, and so this morning I was back up... not all the way up.. but up.  I know I shouldn't be weighing in on Monday's anyway... so I'll weigh again on Wednesday and see how I'm doing.

Over the summer I started to do Insanity... did I talk about that at all?  I only did maybe 7 days worth over the course of 2 weeks.. but it was HARD.  I'm back at it, and this time with my boyfriend.  He is coming to the end of his "busy" season at work.. and has basically not exercised at all for the last 3 months.  To be fair, we did run a race together in March, and he beat my butt... even though I'm always at the gym... so he's not THAT out of shape!

Anyway, it's nice to be doing it together and keeping each other accountable.  It is SOOOO hard.  I'm on day 3.  Day 1 was the fit test... 20 minutes and I was sore.  Yesterday he and I did the first real work out together, and the rest of the week we'll have to check in with each other as we finish.  I just did day 3 workout.  I would love for someone to video tape me attempting the moves... because I'm sure I look like a complete idiot.  Oh well, at least I'm trying.

On the food front I'm not doing TERRIBLE, but I really could be better.  I guess I always say that.  Right now I am in no danger of overeating because I have no candy in the house... I'm tempted to go buy those Reese's chocolate eggs though.. they are my favorite.  Obviously a bad idea.

I will update again soon!

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

I weighed myself this morning and was shocked. I have dropped 4.4 lbs. I was stuck on the same number constantly, and there was no moving it... So I'm not exactly sure what's going on, but I like it and I'm going to keep up the healthy food and eating! I should have gone running yesterday but I really couldn't bring myself to. I was in a crappy mood and tired and all I wanted to do was lay on the couch with my cat and watch Bones. I'm going to go to the gym tonight for a weights class, so at least I have that!

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

So, I'm sure this is all in my head, but I'm feeling a little less munchy. I actually had a decent food weekend... Not to say I didn't have a few alcoholic beverages and a few bad foods, but overall I kept it under control and came out of the weekend feeling like I had won!

I got into the 10k on 4th of July in Atlanta, which I am so excited about. You have to sign up, pay, and then they put your name in a lottery to be chosen. Last year I didn't get it, but I'm so glad to be participating this year. There are 5 of us in my group, including my boyfriend and my best friend. I ran the race 2 years ago with my best friend and we finished in 1 hour and 29 minutes. We want to cut our time this year by 10 minutes... Totally doable.

So now I need to start training... And encourage my BFF to start training too. We want to run it together, so we need to train at the same pace.

Anyway, I hope my feelings about my healthy eating are true and not in my head! I would like this to continue!

Thursday, March 21, 2013

I'm feeling a lot better! I was thinking I would be down for the count for a few days but it seems like all I have now is the dull ache of a normal period.
I'm still taking it easy.. Walking on the treadmill instead of running, but I got my food in check for right now and I'm happy about that!
I'm in Tampa for work :( the weather is nice and sunny, but it's a little cold. I'm at a hotel walking distance to the office which is nice, but it felt pretty darn cold this morning.
Eats- egg white omelet with fruit, chicken Caesar salad with a banana, and a shrimp quesadilla, with no sour cream or quac.
I walked on the treadmill for 45 minutes this morning and I think I'm headed down there again now. I guess I could sit in my hotel room and read or watch TV but its only 8pm so I've got plenty of time to kill.
Looking to be just as good tomorrow!

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Well that failed. I definitely need a do-over on the Arden's Garden fast.
To be completely honest I am not surprised. I've been pretty stressed out, and I tend to over eat when I'm in a stressful situation or something that I can't control.
This time it was because I was worried about getting an IUD. I have really been wanting to get it, and I heard that it would mean no pregnancies and no periods for 5 years. How do you pass that up? What was really concerning me was the pain- I had heard it hurt soooo much... Like having a baby. The worry was consuming me and so I was consuming food... Not good. I had the procedure this morning and boy, was it painful. It was pretty simple, they open you up with one of those metal clamps, and then put a tube into your cervix, kind of like a tampon.. They expel the IUD and then pull the tube out and you're done. Unfortunately the first one they put in pulled out when the tube came out so I had to go through the whole thing again. My doctor said it was probably defective...
Now I am home and I hurt a lot... Just like bad cramps.. And I want to eat everything.

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Day 1 of Arden's Garden juice fast is complete. I went to the gym and took a weight class yesterday which really just sucked it out of me. I couldn't manage to do anything last night after that. Makes sense... If you're just drinking juice, how could you expect your muscles to be strong?
I really need to clean my house, and last nght would have been the perfect opportunity, but instead I watched tv and then ::gasp:: ate pizza.
Stupid boyfriend reminded me that he had forgotten his leftovers. If he hasn't said anything, I would never have noticed, and would have finished the day with zero solid food. I guess I wasn't too mad at myself because they were small pieces from one of those gourmet shops and couldn't have been more than 400 calories total. I called it 600 and was still under my calorie goal.
This juice stuff has a lot of sugar!! Makes sense I guess... But it's really not necessarily a "low calorie" fast.
I'm going to finish strong today WITHOUT food, and plan on continuing into tomorrow when my juice is finally finished.

Monday, March 18, 2013

Today and tomorrow I am participating in a juice fast. I just need to do something. I know this wont be a permanent fix, and that the results I will see aren't forever, but I'm 14 hours in and have 34 left to go and am feeling good.

I used to be a faster and a starver.... As I've gotten older and read more and more on nutrition, I truly understand that your body cannot function at its full potential without calories. However, it is easy to see a quick fix idea and think that it might work, or it might be worth it. The healthier me is larger than the younger me who did fast and over exercise and all that... So what is my reward for doing it right!?

I'm going to give this a solid two days and then head to Tampa for work. I'll be eating while I'm there, but I will be alone for dinners which is nice, as long as I can manage not to binge.

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

I'm alive. Just lost the motivation to write. I'm so tired of trying so hard every day and not seeing results

Friday, February 8, 2013

Goal 1 has been accomplished.

I am CPR certified.  There is nothing holding me back from becoming a personal trainer.... except for myself.

So what's my problem.  Excuses.  I make excuses for myself.  It can be something like

"My, its been a good few days so far...the office is providing lunch from Baja Fresh.  I'll eat the salad, and just half a wrap.  I'll save my healthy lunch for dinner.  Oh, they have tortilla chips.  Okay well then just a few."  3 hours later, healthy dinner has been eaten, as well as a 250 calorie whole wheat bagel ("well, thats healthy... it's high in calories and full of carbs.. but its better than candy") but then I see some candy that my roommate left lying around, and its all out the window.  Before I know it, I'm 600 calories over my goal and I'm depressed about myself so I keep eating the candy.

So I think what I need to do is list out my excuses. And then decide on a reason these excuses  wont work (that may be another post).

So.  My Excuses.  Please list yours as well below in the comments.. I'm sure if you have some different excuses, I probably just missed it)

1. "It's free.  How could you pass up free food"
2. "The weekend is the time I should be allowed to cheat"
3. "My boyfriend can eat it and says thin, I want to keep up"
4. "I've been good the last few [Days/Meals/Hours], I deserve a treat"
5. "Something great happened, a cookie or cake would be a great way to celebrate"
6. "I don't have TIME to cook a healthy dinner.  I'm just going to stop by Moe's... thats healthier than fast food"
7. "I don't have TIME to cook a healthy dinner... I'm just not going to eat."
8. "Starving is easier... and I'll get results.  I should just starve"

Thursday, February 7, 2013

So, 2 weeks straight where I haven't lost weight.  Because I'm trying to lose the "last 10 lbs" and they are really vanity pounds, not health pounds, I really struggle with how many calories I should eat.  My BMR is slightly under 1500 calories.  I *know* I shouldn't go under this amount, but instead be working out and eating clean foods to jumpstart my weight loss again.... but it's just so tempting to say "eat as little as possible and lose now!!"  Obviously that's not working for me, right?

I need a new plan

Gahh.. how can I find a middle ground?

Monday, January 28, 2013

Hello. Nothing new with me. Still trying to lose weight, obviously. I've been doing quite well, but I did indulge a little over the weekend with a few glasses of wine and a few skinny margaritas. Yum yum. I also had pizza. Has anyone had Mellow Mushroom before? Calories are like 400 per slice! I could not even believe that when I read it.

Still been doing a great job with exercise. Had a minor setback pulling my leg muscle during a run, so I'm going to hold off running this week until I'm 100% better. I have one week left of my Zombie 5k. I can't believe I have made it 7 weeks through a running program! First time I've done that... EVER! Anyway, I should sign off on a good note, not before I weigh myself haha

Friday, January 18, 2013

I did tons of cardio this week and kept track of my food like crazy. Not saying I are perfectly, but I definitely should have lost some weight.
When I got home from Chicago, my new scale was waiting for me. I was pretty anxious to try it out but knew I should wait til the morning. I drempt about it....
I stepped on the old scale for comparison to my weight from before and I was up 0.6 lbs!!! Whyyyyy??? 152.6
So frustrating, and so unfair. I mean, what's the point of cardio if nothing is going to change?
I stepped on the new scale and it read 150 exactly. Has my scale been wrong? Maybe the battery is getting old. I turned on the body fat etc calculator and it told me I have 25% body fat and 53% water. Is this good? I know it's in the acceptable range but am I too worried about my scale number? Ugh. I just want to see 140.

Saturday, January 12, 2013

It's been a long time since I posted. I did really well on my exercising goals, and I'm keeping it up.
My New Years resolution is to become a personal trainer.... And I know that's kind of wild, but I've always enjoyed working out, and I feel like I need something other than taxes in my life. Even if I don't start working as a trainer, at least ill be certified and know that I could do it if I wanted.

So step 1 of this endeavor is to get into great shape. No one old want a fat trainer telling them what to do. It's my eating that needs to get under control. I'm starting by nixing alcohol until march 31st. Only exception will be my birthday. This is bound to make a difference. It's not like I plan to replace my nightly wine with some other high calorie drink.

Honestly, I'm afraid to weigh myself for fear of how high it is. Last time I weighed I was 152, and in the past my max was around 148. Obviously, 4 lbs is small, but its still the principle. How did I let it get so high?

I keep talking about planning and I need to do this and that etc. but instead of talking, I need to actually DO it. Take control of eating. Say no to meals out during the week with boyfriend. I've been in FL this week for work and Chicago next week, which means I could eat like a maniac because I'm "on vacation" or I could really buckle down since I won't have friends to tempt me.

Step 2 is to buy a new scale. One that tells me body composition and will help me improve in other ways than just weight. I ordered this on groupon and hopefully ill get it soon!