Sunday, November 25, 2012

It's my favorite time of year!! The weather is getting cool... Football season is in full swing and my team is doing well... Except for NFL but that's ok... And it's Christmas time!
Thanksgiving wasn't a disaster. I spent it with my boyfriends parents- I am convinced his mother hates me, but she was quite pleasant regardless. I drank a lot... And have continued to do so for the last few days... I haven't tried to weigh myself because I got my period on Thursday and on top of the holiday eating I'm just not looking forward to the number. My plan for the coming week is to eat very simply and to eat the same thing every day. I know this is boring but doesn't it seem like if I add variety, I'm more likely to eat things not on "the diet"? Maybe I'm just making things up and this won't work... But I'm going to try!!
Breakfast- oatmeal with pb and milk
Lunch- tortilla with turkey cheese and hummus
Snack- Greek yogurt and 1/2 a pomegranate
Dinner- grilled chicken strip and buffalo chicken strip

I need to calculate the calories and make sure this works.

Pictures are me and the boyfriend at our last home football game of the season yesterday, and my newly wrapped "presents"

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

I haven't been reading any blogs at all. I just checked and I have 25 from Miranda in my queue. Sorry I've been such a slacker. I promise to hunker down over the holiday!

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Bad Day

I just need to post and tell you all the things about my life that are miserable... because I am feeling extremely sorry for myself and I need to just get it all out and move on.

1. I like my roommate, she is really nice.  Except she overfed my cat while I was in India and now she is fat.  Also, she is the messiest person I know.  And the thing that seriously sucks is I asked her if she was clean before we moved in and she said yes.  I think she is possibly disillusioned about how messy she is.  Not dirty, just messy.  Like, is selling clothes on ebay.. and so we have a huge pile of clothes in our dining room... which is in plain view when you walk in.  The coffee table is always covered in her contracts for work, and time magazine.  Maybe I'm just jealous that she's cultured enough to read time magazine, but seriously, put them in a pile, don't strew them about so I can't put anything on the table.  The kitchen is the worst.  She loves to cook, and she's good at it, and very generous with her baked goods... but I literally have 1 drawer in the fridge.  And its not even a full drawer.. its like a half drawer at the bottom.  And when I got back from India, it was full of Apples.  So now I am sharing my half drawer with her apples, and the entire rest of the fridge is full of her stuff.  I kind of wonder if she even knows what is in the fridge.  I have a feeling it goes bad before she has a chance to eat it... I end up throwing a lot of stuff away when I notice it has mold on it.  Anyway.  And since she's always cooking, the sink is always full of dishes, and the dishwasher is always full of dishes, and I felt like I needed to make an appointment to cook tonight... because the chances of her being in there when I get home from work are pretty high.  It feels like I am a guest in my own house.  She takes over all the common area space, and I must sit in my room.  Granted my room is much bigger than hers.  Oh,, I didnt mention the washer dryer... but I'm sure you get the jist of that.
2.  My boyfriend doesnt want to move in with me.  I need to respect that he's not ready and at least he's telling me that... but i feel super rejected.  I don't want to live with my roommate anymore, but he doesn't want to live with me, so do I move in by myself again?  I hate moving.  And if I do, then I rope myself into a contract for another year, and what if before then he is ready?  See... this is a major problem, that I'm making my life decisions based on his 'what if' and that is NOT okay.  He's certainly not doing that... so I need to be doing what I want, what I need, without regard to whether he may or may not do what I want him to.
3. My job is killing me.  It's a challenging role which is great, and I get to travel a lot which is also great.  However... I was in India for an entire month.. and I think it's okay for me to take off 2 days before starting back.  Nope.  Of course everyone SAYS its okay.  SAYS yes, take a break.. but when it comes down to it, I get meetings placed on my calendar for the entire two days.  So many meetings in fact that even had I been working, i wouldnt have been able to get anything done.  My job is super stressful in that way.  We have 20 people doing 20 different things, and they all need something from you, but no one coordinates with each other.  No one stops to ask if I'm busy during my lunch hour (yes, I am)... because they live on the West Coast and it's convenient for them.  Now we have india up and running, this job seems like its a 24 hour commitment.  I need to bring my computer home every night because I can't finish my tasks during the day due to all the meetings, and when i wake up in the morning I have a ton of e-mails from the people working in India.  It just sucks.   The problem is... what would I want to do instead?  What would make me happy?  I have no idea.

Ok so I guess thats all thats bothering me because I can't think of anything else.  I need a plan for my job.  I need to tell my boss I'm stressed out.  But the problem is... the work still has to get done, so does it even matter if I'm stressed out?  I still have to work, still have to do my tasks that take me all day and into the night... but there has to be a better way.  There has to.
And I have no idea what to do about the roommate.  I can clean up after her, I could move her apples out of my drawer and just force myself to have space.  I can make appointments to use the kitchen, I could possibly work from home so I'm on the couch when she gets home and she can't take over the common area... but that all requires a lot of time and effort.  I don't even know how to talk to her about it.  What do you say? 

Saturday, November 10, 2012

So.... today are the results of my 30 Day Shred...

I didn't finish the full 30 days... only 22.  I did a lot of cardio workouts, and when i was done i was too tired to do the shred video.  Anyway.. here we go


Waist- 27.65
Belly Button- 29.55
Hips- 39.25
Thigh- 22.75
Chest 33.2
Total: 152.4


Waist- 27
Belly Button- 29
Hips- 38.5
Thigh- 22
Chest- 32.5
Total: 149

Weight.... I think it might have gone up!!  I can't believe I am smaller.  I can't believe this worked.

Friday, November 9, 2012

I just discovered this tv show called just for laughs. It's like afhv, but better bc they play jokes on ppl. I might need to stay just so I can watch a months worth. I'm cracking up!!
Anyway... I laughed and felt my abs!! This jillian michaels crap works!!!

Thursday, November 8, 2012

012. Wear a rubber band around your wrist and snap it when you want to eat. You'll train yourself not to think about eating.

it looks like I'm not going to be able to come home.  Oh well.. I am going to spend the entire day Saturday lounging around and resting/reading/exercising and at the spa.  I wonder if my boss will pay for my manicure?! haha

i have been purging again... seems like thats what i do when i travel huh?  not good.  stress reflex i guess?  its hard not to overeat when you have to go to dinners.  if i were by myself i might have a salad.  when im with other people, i have the salad, and then some of the appetizer, and a glass of wine...and there you go.. an extra 500-1000 calories in seconds.

TK-- if you are reading this.. I keep trying to comment on your blog but I can't!  But I'm sending my love :)

Sunday, November 4, 2012

011. Eat with the opposite hand you normally do. Left handed people eat with their right hand, and vice versa.

Quick post.  Last week in India!!  I can't wait to go home.  There is a slight chance I'll fly Saturday morning instead of Sunday morning.. which would mean I can see my love earlier than expected!  So exciting.  Not going to get my hopes up, because Delta hasn't been very nice to me... but we'll see.

Umm 30 Day Shred level 3.  Ouch.  I can't even do half the stuff.  I don't have weights, just water bottles, so the moves where you are in plank position lifting up your arms I can't use weights.  Oh.. and Im sure I already mentioned this... but I feel terrible doing some of the jumping moves in the hotel, so I usually just do jumping jacks bc I can land softly.

Anyway... I'm going to be super super super good with my food this week.  I do have to go to that Indian restaurant I mentioned last post.. that got postponed to this week, but other than that, I'm eating clean!


Thursday, November 1, 2012

010. If you live by yourself and prone to binges, buy only the food you need for the day. That way if you eat it, there isn't anymore.

I feel like I'm pretty much the fattest person on earth.  I ate over 2,600 calories today.  I did go to the gym and burned 600, but after I entered everything into my fitness pal, it told me if I kept eating like this I'd be up to 151 in 5 weeks.  Not good.  So disappointed with myself.  I don't understand what my motivation is?!

Of course tomorrow we're going out for traditional indian food.  No getting around that...

I finished level 2 of 30DS today!  I'm not sure what level 3 brings, but I'm ready!  I've lost half an inch in my waist, but thats the only place that's gotten smaller.  Probably becaues I keep eating.  Want to hear something crazy?  Today I went to KFC for the first time in TWENTY years.  I don't plan on going back for at least another 20.