The real problem is, it doesn't matter if he likes me or doesn't like me. The way he acts makes me feel as if he doesn't really care. He told me early on that many of his girlfriends have complained that he is "non-emotional" and acts as if the relationship is a take it or leave it deal to him. He said "That's not necessarily how I feel, but I just don't really show that." I totally see that happening. Sometimes he says the SWEETEST things... FOR INSTANCE:
See... so sweet... seems like he likes me. Then I get e-mails about how he thinks I'm hot for the guy who takes my blood at Red Cross, and how he shouldn't visit because then I won't have time for the blood guy. Like maybe he is just joking around... but seriously? Not funny.... especially over an e-mail.
ME: if you think that 4th of July would be a bad weekend, I can come a different one. I know you said you had to check with your momma but I don't want to make her mad. She's gotta like me :)
HIM:Lol she's gonna like baby. I was hoping the 4th of july cuz if its not that weekend I'm worried it won't be until August and that's a long time not to see you.
So I feel like I have obsessed about this enough. I can't just "have fun" with this one. There is no "fun" talking on the phone... and since he hasn't made an effort to have me come visit, other than to say he needs to check with his mother about July 4th weekend (which I assume he hasn't because I haven't heard anything), it isn't like we'll be "having fun" visiting every month. I need to take this for what it is.. a good time that is probably not going to happen again. Maybe he found another girl and doesn't want me to come visit because then he'd have to disappear for a weekend and come up with an explanation. More likely, he's just not that into me... which makes perfect sense because I DO live on the other side of the damn country.
Ugh.. Seriously.. Can I just let this go? YES. I need to meet a new guy, and then I can let this go.