Okay... on to weight related stuff.
In the last 4 weeks, I have been seeing a personal trainer. Her name is Kristin and she is great. She is 27, in AMAZING shape, and we have a lot of fun chatting. It seems to me like we would be really good friends. This is a plus and a minus on the personal training front. I WANT to go, because I spend a good half hour talking to someone I like, and the workout goes by fast. Wouldn't it suck to work out in silence? However, after the first time, I no longer got sore... I feel like she and I probably don't work out as hard as we could because we are chit chatting. She never gives me any advice like "you need to work on form" (maybe I have perfect form?) Do you think that since I am paying her, I should say something? And what would I say?? I like her A LOT and I don't want to ruin this, but like I said.. I am paying her so I should be getting results.
Okay, also... I have been GAINING weight. I am at 150 right now. I have been working out like crazy... I have been going to cycle twice a week, which is an hour of intense cardio, I have been doing my personal training workouts once or twice a week and then doing a half hour of cardio. I wonder if I have been eating more???
I also started taking birth control again... seasonique.. the kind you take for 3 months with no period. This week would have been the week I would have gotten my period, and I am feeling sore in my hips, and a little bloated. Is this normal? Could this be why I am gaining weight? What happens with all that tissue buildup if I don't have a period? Does it get reabsorbed? Or does it just keep building up for 3 months and then I have a really heavy period when I finally get one?
Also, I am not eating today after brunch. I promised that I would go to my friends parents house for brunch, but I am NOT eating after that. I bought size 6 shorts at old navy yesterday. I didn't try them on because I was sweaty from cycle, but when I got them home... they DIDN'T FIT!!!! SERIOUSLY? I can't wear ANY shorts. That's how awesome my life is. I am NOT going to be the fat girl. An 8 is ridiculous. Fuck Me.