i have been reading blogs but have been unmotivated to write. and my internet has been out at home. and i am more than a little tired of unloading on you all. basically, in order to survive real life, i get out all the bad stuff here... that way, its like i bitched, im over it, and now i can be happier in the real world.. or supposedly.
fast update on boy-- i left him a voicemail voicing my opinion about it being over and him being less than a man for ignoring me. he called later that night, let me know that his phone had been broken for the last 3 days, that i was being a complete girl because i didn't try to call him or i would have known it went straight to voicemail, and that he didn't have my number memorized so he couldn't call me. so... we made up. i need to take this less seriously. my best friend in blogger land (she doesn't blog, but she's still my bff) told me it sounds like i am super depressed and stressed about this whole situation. I shouldn't be though... because like i said in my last post... he lives in Colorado... there IS NO future. This is purely fun, and I think that because I have been in serious relationships so long, I sometimes forget that. The rational part of me just seems to slip out when I am stressed, and everything becomes this HUGE mess when I should be living life to the fullest, having fun, and accepting things for the way they are.
Easier said than done.
The stress has done me good this time around. I have been working out like a mad woman. I didn't exercise Sunday, but Monday I went to a spin class, and then to the other gym and did 30 minutes on the elliptical. Yesterday I went to my trainer in the morning (6:30-- way too early), and then to a spin class, which was surprisingly good. I have my favorite instructors, and then I feel like no one ever measures up. Tuesday at 6:45-- now on the list!
Food has been decent too. Fruit, I had an entire subway sub yesterday-- half for lunch and half for dinner, and soup too. I did eat 2 granola bars and 2 cookies, I didn't deserve them and shouldn't have had them. Will do better today. Doubtful I will be exercising... big deadline at work.
Hope everyone is well.