i am sabotaging myself. why would i do that?
this hot hot hot boy... he is coming to visit me. it has been the best motivation i have ever had for exercising, eating healthily, not binging. BUT... last night, I had no plans, and really I just needed to stay home and get my packing done. I thought... oh well I'll go to Target and return my broken sunglasses and grab a bag of chips for dinner. And the thought didn't occur to me until I already bought them "chips are bad for you, don't get them.. they are a weakness." So I got them and I ate almost half the bag. And then because I wanted to, I made a lean cuisine meal... because that is how awesome I am.
I am dumping out the chips today. I honestly do not deserve any food if I am going to do that to myself.
One bite and I am done for. Shouldn't even start.
I don't want to check the scale to see what the damage is, I am too afraid.