Thursday, May 12, 2011

A few weeks ago I wrote you from the doctors office excited to tell you how I was below 140. Today I am back, weighing about 145, and with a lot on my mind. Abnormal pap. I don't even know what that means. I'm scared, sick to my stomach, worried about the impending biopsy and how (if at all) this will change my future.
I realize that the worst thing I can do is focus on the worst case scenario, but I find it very hard not to jump to "cancer" as the source of this issue. Honestly, I come every year. If I DO have cancer, I doubt that it would be at a stage that wasn't managable. Whatever is wrong can be fixed. Logically, I know, but it doesn't stop me from jumping to the worst conclusions.
Im going in. Wish me luck!

6 comments:

  1. Sounds very stressful, the waiting part. Hope everything turns out ok.

    ~ Harlow

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  2. Gl hon.. Hope everything is ok.

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  3. Best of luck! Like you my mind would be racing! Hope you get some answers soon. Hopefully it'll be nothing.

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  4. I'm wishing the best for you!!!!

    ~MLM

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  5. Good luck, K. Thinking positive for you.

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  6. can't be cancer. wishing u good luck. i also have a feeling that u and i have something in common.... more than the Ed part and counting part. :P

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