Wednesday, February 19, 2014

I got my ass handed to me last night at bootcamp. I was so tired that when I lost my balance stretching I couldn't catch myself and I fell over!!
I am glad I'm trying new things, that has always been really hard for me. The living social deal wasn't hard to buy because one of my friends works out there, but going to my first class was tough and I put it off for at least a month! And yesterday I had to convince myself to go to a different location (my regular location was closed). I don't know why I have this fear of new things. Fear of change, maybe? Maybe that's why my body won't change. 
My girlfriend who works out at this kickboxing gym is in amazing shape. A few years ago we were both my size and both a little disordered. She moved to Australia for 2 years and her lifestyle changed completely. She came back thinner than ever running half marathons and doing things that I only dreamed of. And she looked amazing. She said she ate food that fueled her body to do things she loved, and it was easy to say no to the things that didn't further her goals. I want to be there!!
The gym I bought the deal at is really expensive... 80/month. My friend says "if you could have the body you wanted, wouldn't you pay ANYTHING for it?" My answer is probably yes. Should I join thisplace  after my month is up, or could I be getting  the same workout at my 30 dollar gym?

Flowers from vday:


  1. Do you feel like you get as much out of the 30 place as the 80 place? if you don't then the answer is easy :)

  2. I've never been to a gym, but I have lots of equipment at home. My logic says; if the $30 gym has the same facilities as the $80 one, there's no reason why you wouldn't get the same workout. Are you noticing a difference being at the more expensive one? Are the staff better? Is it cleaner? Which one do you feel more comfortable at?
    Keep working towards that goal of eating for fuel and kicking ass fitness-wise. You can do it!

  3. Re your comment: It's a bit more complicated than not liking to go out. I have severe anxiety and agoraphobia, and going out in public is a near-impossible feat for me. I haven't left the house on a regular basis for over a year, and when I do, there's a lot of internal rules and barriers about where's 'safe' and where's not. Medical appointments are really the only time I go out.
    As for school or work, I've been on a disability pension since I was 16 (before my ED, funnily enough). I haven't been able to study since I was about 14, every attempt to go back to studying has fallen flat on it's face.
    I hope that explains myself a bit more!