i deleted my blog in 2010 after the big break up thing.. and now i can't find ANY of those old articles.  I downloaded it onto my desktop, but I guess I didnt... I thought I had them somewhere but I can't find them.  Ugh.

Have you all been checking blogger religiously to see what my weigh in was?!

144.0 

And of course we don't know whether the weigh in was apples to apples with my other scale I had been using.  I'll just start weighing in at home from now on. This is the lowest weight I have seen in a few years. I've seen 144 a couple of times in the last few months but never lower than that.

Well, ladies, things are going to change!!!

I have 4 weeks and would like to lose 4 lbs by then. I don't think it's going to happen, given that if has been 8 weeks and I've lost 6 lbs which is .75 per week. This is a hard month because it's my birthday next Friday, and then we are going to a cabin in the mountains for a weekend after that.  Lots of bad decisions to be made, but I plan to go out for sushi on my birthday, and I have the Advocare cleanse starting march 17th.  I need to do more research so I know what's going on with the cleanse. I know it's hard work so I plan to be prepared. 

Tomorrow is my weekly weigh in and I'm doing it from my house instead of my boyfriends. I almost always sleep over at his house on Wednesday or Thursday and weigh in accordingly, but not this week. I know my scale is either heavier or lighter than his, but I just can't remember which. I think I'll weigh in less on mine than I will on his, and I really don't want to screw up the results!

I haven't been eating with reckless abandon but I can't say my food has been perfect. Exercise wise I'm doing awesome so maybe that is a reason for the extra food. 

I think that deep down I want to switch to the kickboxing gym over LA Fitness, even though it's $50 more per month. It is WAY more disgusting... Like what you picture a true boxing gym to look and smell like, but bottom line I work harder, have more fun, and sweat more than when I take a class at LA. The one thing that is holding me back from signing right now is the possibility of moving to another area of town in June and having a contract I can't use. I have until the 2nd .. So I need to make up my mind. 

On the 17th I am starting the 10 day Advocare cleanse. Has anyone done it?

Just a quick update...

I weighed in last Thursday and was UP a pound.  I did feel a little bloated, but I was pretty upset, because I have been working HARD.  Maybe this week I'll see a good loss, as long as I can avoid bloat on Thursday or Friday!
It's so sad that I gave myself 3 months to lose 10 lbs and I am more than half way through and less than half way through the weight loss. I guess right now the weight isn't as important as the way I look.  I am kicking ass in kickboxing and bootcamp and I am looking forward to seeing the changes in my body.  I think in the last few weeks my arms have gotten a little more toned!

Anyway... yesterday I ran my fastest ever mile... It was all downhill at a place we like to hike.  We hike up the mountain trail and run down the road.  The first run down was about 1.5 miles and we did it at an 8:05 minute per pace, which was my fastest pace ever.  Then we hiked back up (VERY slowly... boyfriend was way ahead of me haha), and this time we hiked a little further so we got to the road in a different place.  We ran about 1.15 miles in a 7:30 pace!!! My NEW fastest ever!  I couldnt even believe it!  Before that, my BFF and I ran a 5k from my house down to a breakfast place (11 minute mile pace), so it was a BIG exercise day.  I had planned to go to kickboxing this morning, but instead I am here at home typing away and drinking coffee! SO sore.

Anyway, I've run 15% of my goal of 365 miles so far, so I'm on track.  I wish I could get a little ahead since so I didn't feel so pressured to run instead of go to these classes I am enjoying.

In other news, I can't remember the last time I purged.  I know it's been in the last year because I remember doing it in this home, but it's been so long and few/far between that it's not something I even think about anymore.  That is pretty exciting.

I got my ass handed to me last night at bootcamp. I was so tired that when I lost my balance stretching I couldn't catch myself and I fell over!!

I am glad I'm trying new things, that has always been really hard for me. The living social deal wasn't hard to buy because one of my friends works out there, but going to my first class was tough and I put it off for at least a month! And yesterday I had to convince myself to go to a different location (my regular location was closed). I don't know why I have this fear of new things. Fear of change, maybe? Maybe that's why my body won't change. 

My girlfriend who works out at this kickboxing gym is in amazing shape. A few years ago we were both my size and both a little disordered. She moved to Australia for 2 years and her lifestyle changed completely. She came back thinner than ever running half marathons and doing things that I only dreamed of. And she looked amazing. She said she ate food that fueled her body to do things she loved, and it was easy to say no to the things that didn't further her goals. I want to be there!!

The gym I bought the deal at is really expensive... 80/month. My friend says "if you could have the body you wanted, wouldn't you pay ANYTHING for it?" My answer is probably yes. Should I join thisplace  after my month is up, or could I be getting  the same workout at my 30 dollar gym?

Flowers from vday:

I bought a living social deal for a month long membership to a kickboxing gym. They have bootcamp and kickboxing and I've been going for the last few weeks about 3 times per week. I feel so empowered! I love how sore I am afterwards and I love feeling like a badass!

I've lost 5 lbs since the beginning of the new year, and i am working on another 5 by the end of march. I'm not sure that I was quite 150 on 1/1 but probably close to it... And I haven't seen 140 in a LONG time. I know the next 5 won't be easy but I'm hoping the new workout routine will kick start my burns!

All for now