i think it's amazing how facebook can be so time consuming.  i sat down to write a blog post like 15 minutes ago... but instead i've been surfing through old pictures of myself.  i kept thinking "wow, if only i had known how skinny i was instead of being obsessed with getting smaller."  don't you think it's interesting that i've been obsessed with getting smaller for going on a decade and yet... i've only gotten bigger!
i think what i need to do is start counting calories again.  i dont exactly know why i stopped.  its a hassle i guess.. it takes a while to do and you either have to do it throughout the day, or you have to try and remember every morsel you put into your mouth that day.  i guess ideally you really wouldnt be putting morsels of anything in your mouth right??  giving up alcohol for lent hasn't been the struggle i thought it would be... probably because i am replacing my cravings with hot chocolate.  i have found that the coffee machine at the client i'm currently working on has this crazy 'chocochino' setting... which is basically milk and hot chocolate and goodness all wrapped in one.  i'm probably having 3 a day.  300 calories... in hot chocolate.  what an idiot.  i vow not to have any today.

in other news, i signed up to run a 10k on July 4th.  soooo i'm doing that couch to 5k program... and this time i don't plan on quitting!  2 sessions down... who knew i'm so out of shape??  i know i say this every time... how can i do a 60 minute spin class but not be able to run for 1 minute and walk for 90 seconds 8 times in a row?  i am running 10 minute mile pace... is that slow? average?  i know its not fast... i just want to know if maybe i should try to speed it up or slow it down for this type of training.

i have other court related drama... but i'll save that for another time.

I promised myself I would be posting more, and eating healthier, and all that jazz, once busy season was over.  Over for about a week I should say, then back to work hard core.  I have some tough clients with some tough deadlines.  Currently I'll be at a client site until the middle of April.  I think I can handle it, but it would be nice to get a break!!  Going on a cruise with my mother over Easter.  I'd like to be in my tip top shape for that.  Last time I went on a cruise I was in the low 130s.  Now I'm in the low 140s :(

I have been keeping up with exercising.  I found a new weight training class that I love on Tuesday mornings.  I had been going to Wednesday morning spin class, but I've determined that I just really hate the teacher.  No point in doing something that makes you miserable, right?  If my love life didn't get in the way, then ideally I would be going to a Spin on Monday nights and Saturday Mornings, a Yoga on Thursdays and Sundays, and the weight class on Tuesdays.  Leaving Wednesday and Friday as "me" time.  To bad I DO have a love-life (who ever says something like that)

Currently I am seeing two guys.  This one is someone who I work with.  He travels during the week, so I see him Friday nights- Saturday mornings, then occasionally Saturday nights- Sunday afternoons.  More recently it's been seeing each other both... I think our feelings our growing for each other.  He's made it perfectly clear that he is not interested in getting serious... but we make each other happy, the sex is great, and who complains about that... right?!  This one I met at my birthday party (yes, that is me... full body shot... eek) and we have gone out 3 times.  He is very sweet, from Canada, a perfect gentleman, in EXCELLENT shape (I am only assuming, he is a personal trainer), and we seem to have a courting relationship going on.  We have not kissed.  3 dates. No kiss.  I feel like I should just kiss him... but I am determined not to be a whore in this one.  I am determined to make rational and thought out decisions.  I'm already getting action, I don't need to be doing that with 2 people.  I decided if I want to have a long term serious relationship, then I should act like it.  And by act like it I mean see 2 people at the same time????  Ugh I'm an idiot.

i made it!  taxes are done!!  i did screw something up pretty bad... but oh well, hopefully it fixes itself and no one will have to worry.  Now i just have to do my OWN taxes.... I actually already did them I just have to file.  I owe my state $18.
So this week is the week of starting fresh in 2011.  I've kept strong with my lenten resolutions, and I made it to the gym tuesday morning and today.  Weight workout class, and Spin.  I feel extremely tired, but hey.. I guess thats what you have to do to get in shape.  I have definitely been getting smaller in 2011... I fit comfortably into more pants than before, which is always a nice feeling.  Obviously I'm not where I want to be, but a step in the right direction is always good.

well... march 15th is about to be here.  and i'm looking forward to that stress being gone... but i also know that there will be another deadline, another project, another SOMETHING.  There always is.  I'm also having a lot of personal problems that aren't helping my life right now.  Lets just say that 2011 hasn't gotten off on the right start.  On the plus side, I haven't cheated on any of the things I'm restricting for lent.... I AM having a hard time keeping up with the water and the squats... but I'm fasting today, so I think I'll be able to catch up on the water, and I've done the squats for the last 2 days (my current sexual partner says I have a great ass... so that is motivation to keep it up).  I need to sit down and tell you about my personal life... I think getting it out would help... my neck and back are so stiff from carrying around the stress.  Hopefully after tomorrow I'll be feeling a little bit better and able to catch you up

have a great day :)

I'm sorry I've been gone.  Tax season is slowly killing me.  I have two corporations due on March 15th, and 3 corporations I am trying to extend.   This basically just means I am working my butt off until then... and afterwards, I have to start a quarterly provision for my largest client (don't even worry about what that means... haha).  Basically I have no life.  I haven't been good with eating... my birthday was on Monday and my goal was to hit 139, but I was still at 142.  Yuck.

For lent I've given up the following:
Alcohol
Gossiping
Mexican Food
Candy

And I've taken on:
Drinking 2 liters of water each day
Doing 50 squats every day.