The blogosphere is awfully quiet these days. I like to read about others successes and struggles because it's so motivating... But maybe I need to participate a little more :)
Nothing really going on with me. Phoenix was not good to my body, even though I exercised every day. I'm really losing faith... As always. I'm sort of thinking I should just give up food in general. Today I had coffee and soup and an apple, then left over Kung pao chicken for dinner. I also left work early and did a spin class and a weight class. Definitely going to sleep well tonight!!

Well, I cut out the almonds but I was still not seeing any results. I'm really not sure why. It seems so odd because I've read that low carb HAS to work. one thing that was suggested is I cut out any salads or vegetables I was eating to force my body into ketosis. That seems pretty extreme. Only meat all the time til I start dropping? Yuck. I don't really have any ideas other than that. Either just give it up and start a low cal diet, or keep going even though I'm not seeing results and hope my body kicks into gear. Hmm... Stressful. Also, I need to recommit to the gym. For a while I was doing HIIT but as always, I started makin excuses when it got hard and gave up. Well, technically I just decided to start over and I moved all the days on my calendar... But somehow they got deleted and I haven't gone back to the website again to write them down. I did run 2 miles on Saturday which shocked my body.. I should do that more often.

In other news, I got a new job!! I'll still be working at the same company, but instead of being kneedeep in tax returns all year, I'll be on the internal side, training the offices in the Southeast on how to use our new outsourcing capabilities. I'm actually on a plane to Phoenix this morning for training. I really hope I like the new position... It should give me less hours and an opportunity to travel. I'm hoping more time means more time at the gym and more time to cook healthy foods! While I'm in Phoenix I'm going to try to stay on Eastern time.... Ideally I'll wake up early for the gym every day.

So... I am doing what I think is hardcore lowcarb... but it is NOT working.  Daily diet:
Breakfast- 5 sausage links
Snack- handful of almonds
Lunch- Salad with Chicken
Snack- low carb yogurt, string cheese, almonds
Dinner- Hot Dogs


My thought is that a) the almonds I am eating have too many carbs... or more likely I'm eating more like 2.5 servings and not 1 which is throwing it off b) that's really the only thing I can think of.. because I don't cheat anywhere else.  It's just so frustrating because I've been eating like this for an entire week and lost a few lbs, but by the end of the weekend, with a tiny bit of cheating, I ended up right where I started.  I guess to lose 3 lbs in a week is an accomplishment and I shouldn't say it's no big deal... the big deal is when I'm gaining it back not making smart decisions.

Saturday was a wedding, and I ate low carb throughout the entire day until we had shrimp & grits, a tiny bite of cake, and lemonade
Sunday was more of a mess... dinner was at a cuban restaurant with empanadas and lots of corn based food.  Maybe my weight this morning is just holding onto those carbs, and after the gym tonight I'll be doing a lot better.

I feel like I'm really being seriously about this weight loss journey, and that's why its hard not to see results.  When I hear the girls say "oh i don't fit into my old wedding dress woe is me, i can't bring myself to exercise and i eat fast food every day" i do not feel bad for them... because they are making a conscious choice to stay large.  I am trying super hard... and its not working, which kills me.  I am going to give it another week... and if I am not seeing the results I want, I plan to go to a little to no food diet.

Oh, and also... I have to go to the dentist today.  it completely freaks me out.  Anyone else feel that way?  I had a panic attack in the middle of the night about that, weight gain, and jury duty.  Ugh.

I have been making excuses. Too tired to run, too many plans to keep low carb... It's never ending. I went to NYC this weekend. Of course I didn't keep low carb. Next weekend is a wedding. What about then? I feel like regardless of how much I want this, I want the social fun part of life more.
My body has made it pretty clear that slacking off 3 days a week isn't going to work. I need to rededicate myself and put my body first. Weekends aren't breaks until I reach my goal. Weddings aren't excuses. It's definitely challenging... But what isn't??