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i managed a 24 hour fast yesterday... and dinner was about 400 calories, so thats not bad for the day!!

 I've always considered myself someone who "can't do ______."  I like... put a label on myself and then immediately give up.  I can't be a runner, I can't be a faster, I cant be thin... etc.  I think it gives myself a reason to give up... or not even start in the first place.  This is a mentality a lot of people have when it comes to diet and exercise.  We put ourselves in a box because results don't come easy... and then we don't even try.  I am determined not to let that be me.  Results ARE hard to come by, because they require REAL work.  I've always thought to myself "Oh, I should start doing X, because then I will get to point Y" when in reality I actually need to START doing X to get to Y, not just thing about it.

Harlow got me into some health and fitness blogs (I don't keep up as much as I should), and one of the guys is a big proponent of intermittent fasting.  His program is called Eat Stop Eat...I've tried it a few times... its pretty hard for me.... and while I've completed it, I've said to myself "oh, well i did it once, so that's pretty good."  But we all know good things don't come easy.  You can't go to the gym ONCE and see results.  So... with all that being said, I am going to do this today, and I am going to look at my calendar and pick out 4-6 more days this month and report back

being all lovey dovey with someone is awesome.  it definitely has its good points.  but it wreaks havoc on the waistline.  i spent all of saturday and half of sunday with my new man.  Guess who didn't exercise at all this weekend.  luckily he eats pretty healthy, so its not like we're shoveling down nachos and beer all the time.... but he does take me out to eat a lot, and he does like wine, which isn't exactly low in calories.

i have a busy week at work so I'm not sure how much exercising I'll really be able to do.  I plan to go to a weight training class tomorrow morning, and i always have my packed gym bag in my car just in case.  What i really need to do is watch my eating.  I bought a lot of fruit yesterday so I need to make an effort to snack on that instead of candy/chips/etc.  I also made hummus last night.  YUM.  It is so cheap..  I don't think i could ever pay for sabra again.  Hummus is decently healthy for you... but not in large doses.  I don't need to be eating an entire can of chic peas all in one sitting.

today.... breakfast: coffee, peach, oatmeal.  lunch: salad (going out to lunch).  dinner: carrots & hummus, klondike bar.

i dont really know what to write about.  i've been so MIA because i havent been caring much about my eating. i think about food all the time... and obviously the ritalin is supposed to slow down my appetite and i've noticed that.... but it is almost like taking it has given me the right to eat more than i should... how does that work?
i've been dating someone semi seriously for about a month.  i don't think that helps either because he takes me out to dinner a few times a week... and he loves wine so we've been drinking a lot.  he is pretty healthy, so at least i don't have to worry about burgers and fries type places.
one thing i have noticed since i've been dating him is my lack of exercise.  i guess thats what happens in a new relationship.... i have been choosing to see him on my free weeknight instead of hit the gym.  my body feels awful, so something has to give.  i don't want my  muscles to atrophy while i fall in love!!  he likes to run but i'm a little afraid to go with him as i don't think i could keep up.

food wise...i was thinking today i would have a starbucks for breakfast, a small salad for lunch, a granola bar for snack, and a slice of left over pizza for dinner.  i kind of want to avoid the pizza all together, but i have 2 slices in my fridge... and i'm of the mentality that i "cant let it go bad"