the spin class did make me feel better about the boy situation.  I guess getting the endorphins pumping will do that.  too bad I didn't eat anything, and had a big cup of coffee, and halfway through the class I thought I would puke/pass out.  I took it easy the rest of the time.. didn't want to be a quitter!  Then my girlfriend and I went to get bagels-- mine had cheddar and tomato and turkey on it. YUM, but SO bad for you I am sure.  I am going to say 600-700 calories for the meal.  So then on my way home.. I was just.. sad again.  Sad Happy Sad Happy... so I thought... I have time.. and I just went back to the gym!  Did 30 minutes on the elliptical and 15 minutes walking on the treadmill.  How do I feel now?  Um mostly tired... and still a little sad.  But currently my thought is "he lives in denver.. this wasn't going to work out anyway.. why are you so sad about it?"

at least i am pushing myself to exercise through the anguish!