my deficit plan is working well.  I need to up the exercise for sure... this week I've been bad.  But I have a little spreadsheet that shows my BMR+ calories burned through exercise, then I subtract out what I ate, and thats my deficit for the day.

I also like the website www.caloriecount.about.com.  They have A LOT of resources, including a "Challenge" where you post your deficit and compete with other people, or against yourself.   I started the challenge on the 15th at 149 lbs, and as of today I am at 147.  I want to lose weight faster, and I talked to my trainer about that.  She said that in order to lose weight faster I really need to stop drinking alcohol.  Can you believe it... how is that possible?  She is currently prepping for an interview for a video position, and is trying to get her body in the best shape possible.  She said that she is eating 1,000 calories a day and exercising like a maniac.  She sent me a meal plan:

Breakfast- 2 egg whites,  turkey bacon/turkey sausage
Snack- 60 calorie drink, or a piece of fruit
Lunch- salad with very little dressing and 1/2 serving of yogurt
Dinner- 3 grilled chicken tenderloins with steam broccoli

WOW.  How!?  She also mentioned that for lunch she might have half a wrap stuffed with turkey.
I've been eating subway sandwiches this week at work... no cheese (I don't even notice) and sweet onion dressing gets me to 320 calorie sandwich!  Maybe that should be more like dinner...

This week my goal is to stay under 1200 calories 5/7 days.  It's going to take some work but I know I can do it!

So, for the past week i have analyzed my food meticulously like Piglet said she does.. I haven't been putting it on here because I've been participating in a "deficit competition" which keeps me pretty accountable.  Sadly.. I have realized that while I do eat healthy food... I eat too much of it.
Yesterday I had:
Zone bar
Fruit
Hummus and Carrots
Lean Pocket
Latte
Soup
Croissant
Wine
Rice Snacks
Total Calories: about 1700.  I burn what... about 1600?? and I had a 30 minute training session that burned about 100.  So... after I did my calculation, I had a net deficit of 66 measly calories!
It's no wonder that in a solid week, I have only a deficit of 3,050... not even a pound!

Moral of the story... I might be making healthy choices, but I'm eating too much.  Was at 1400 before I snacked on the rice cakes and had a glass of wine.  I want to aim to have a deficit of at least 500 calories/day.  That means either cutting my food down to 1100 calories or exercising more.  I know today I wont exercise (could have this morning if I had gotten my butt out of bed) because I have a date, so I guess that means low calorie food!
How about I go to subway for lunch.  6" Turkey Bread on Whole Grain with sweet onion sauce and no cheese (320).  Carrots (200).  Watermelon (100). Coffee (80).  Powerade (0). Gum (10).
610 before dinner with my date.  If I stick to 2 glasses of wine (300) and a small something, I'll be okay!

quick update post to scare you all...

i had to have my four back teeth all but removed to get the decay out from my bulimia over the last 6 years.  the four teeth second from the back also have deep cavities, but will not require root canals or extensive restoration.
i did this to myself
there is nothing else I can blame it on.  FOUR TEETH. ALL AT ONCE. COMPLETELY GONE.
Throwing up... in a good month, once, in a bad month, 20 times.... for six years.

Think before you puke, ladies.

Should have stayed away from the cheese after lunch.  Only a few bites, but not worth it. Also with the almonds.  Think my deskmate ate the rest though, luckily for me.  Had planned to work out today but it didn't happen.  Had to stay at work until 8pm and then headed straight over to my friend's.  Ate dinner at her house instead of my planned soup, but I think I still did pretty decently.  Shouldn't have had the glass of wine.  At first I said no, but for some reason I changed my mind.
I have a dentist appointment tomorrow at 9am.  I could possibly go to the gym before then and work out.  Is it worth it?  I'm pretty tired.

Planned Calories: 1140
Actual Calories: 1450

Food:

Smoothie		210
Coffee
Fruit
Juice
Almonds		160
Coffee		150
Cheese		100
Fruit		100
Buffalo Chk'n		360
EggRoll		140
Wine		150
		1450

i put up a week's worth of meals that I plan to follow. I am pretty sure the number I saw on the scale this morning (152lbs) is the most I have ever weighed in my life.  Like.. EVER.  It's sad to think that I am no longer in control, and of something I CAN be in control of.
I think it is SO easy to cheat.  It's so easy to say... yeah, I'll have that cookie, or well, if its free, I guess I'll have an extra slice of pizza.  NOT ACCEPTABLE.  I am not poor, I don't need free food. I am not starving, I don't need to shovel food down in fear that I won't have any in the future.  Why do I act like that? Why can't I train my mind to realize that food is fuel?
I am making a grocery list, then I'll head to the gym and work out for an hour.  I'll go to the grocery store and grab the stuff for the healthy me, and be on my way to success!!!

My Weekly Plan

Monday Sept 13
Breakfast:	Coffee with Creamer		80
	Smoothie		210
	Yogurt	90
	Fruit	100
	Juice	20
Snack:
Lunch:	Coffee		150
Snack:	Fruit		100
Dinner:	Soup		400
	Croissants		200
			1140
Tuesday Sept 14
Breakfast:	Oatmeal		100
	Coffee with Creamer		80
Snack:	Carrots		100
Lunch:	Lean Pocket		290
Snack:	Yogurt		90
Dinner:	Soup		400
	Croissants		200
			1260
Wednesday Sept 15
Breakfast	Smoothie		210
	Yogurt	90
	Fruit	100
	Juice	20
	Coffee with Creamer		80
Lunch	Sandwich		350
	Bread	200
	Turkey	50
	Cheese	100
	Carrots		100
Happy Hour	Alcohol- ONE GLASS		200
Dinner	Vegetables		300
			1240
Thursday Sept 16		OFF OF WORK
Breakfast	Coffee with Creamer		80
	Croissants		200
Lunch	Soup		400
Dinner	Out to Eat		800
			1480
Friday Sept 17		OFF OF WORK
Breakfast	Smoothie		210
	Yogurt	90
	Fruit	100
	Juice	20
	Coffee with Creamer		80
Snack	Fruit		100
Dinner	Out to Eat		800
			1190

Went to spin class this morning to banish some of the bad from yesterday.
I like Piglets daily food goal and how she actually sticks to it... but I'm afraid if I try something like that I will fail.   Senior year of college I marked my food down for a solid 2-3 months before spring break to get down in weight.. it definitely worked! I did measurements and everything... i wish I had that drive now!
What I really want is a diet plan.  Something to stick to.  Something where I can go to the grocery store with a list of things to buy, prepare them, and eat exactly what I had planned to eat the entire week.
Busy season is coming to an end.. I'm taking off the 16th and 17th from work just to relax.  Going to get up a massage, nails done, etc.  My treat for working so hard.  And maybe by the time the stress is gone, I won't feel compelled to shove food in my face?