SUchchhchchchchch a fattasss!!!!! Seriously.. I ate 2 slices of pizza and some pasta, AND a cookie. THEN i felt so bad about myself, I literally talked myself into going home and purging. I LEFT MY JOB TO GO THROW UP. I mean, I live 5 minutes away from work, but SERIOUSLY?!
Then of course, I ate more pizza, and 3/4 of a cookie. Then I went for drinks.. 2.5 beers, and some chips.
I feel so disgusting. I feel like a fat pig.
At least I am super full, and it's 10:30, and I can't do any more damage to myself today!
Friday, September 10, 2010
Yesterday I took a diet pill that I've had for a while. Not sure if I can credit it to the fact that I had no solids, but maybe.
Food:
coffee (70)
coffee (120)
hot chocolate (20)
tea (10)
grapes (200)
sugar snap peas (130)
hummus and pita (200)
chips (300)
wine (300)
jelly beans (100)
waffle (100)
total: 1550
I'm just rounding on the grapes, chips, jelly beans, wine and hummus. I know that the chips were less than 300 per the package, but I don't want to lie to myself and think I'm doing good when I'm not.
Today the office is ordering Pizza Hut for lunch. Pizza and Pasta and Salad and Cookies... deadly combination. I also have happy hour plans with a guy from work... so that will be calories.
I dont know why, but I feel like I just can't pass up free food. I know I've mentioned this before... but i KNOW what pizza tastes like, I don't NEED it... and yet, I feel like if I only get salad I'll be depriving myself. Maybe I should bring a tuperware and I can put a pizza in it for tomorrow. I honestly though.. don't NEED pizza. I shouldn't have it at all. I shouldn't have cookies either. Just the salad. And my grapes. And I should take that diet pill before lunch instead of before breakfast.
Food:
coffee (70)
coffee (120)
hot chocolate (20)
tea (10)
grapes (200)
sugar snap peas (130)
hummus and pita (200)
chips (300)
wine (300)
jelly beans (100)
waffle (100)
total: 1550
I'm just rounding on the grapes, chips, jelly beans, wine and hummus. I know that the chips were less than 300 per the package, but I don't want to lie to myself and think I'm doing good when I'm not.
Today the office is ordering Pizza Hut for lunch. Pizza and Pasta and Salad and Cookies... deadly combination. I also have happy hour plans with a guy from work... so that will be calories.
I dont know why, but I feel like I just can't pass up free food. I know I've mentioned this before... but i KNOW what pizza tastes like, I don't NEED it... and yet, I feel like if I only get salad I'll be depriving myself. Maybe I should bring a tuperware and I can put a pizza in it for tomorrow. I honestly though.. don't NEED pizza. I shouldn't have it at all. I shouldn't have cookies either. Just the salad. And my grapes. And I should take that diet pill before lunch instead of before breakfast.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
it seems like everyone here is MIA...I guess I'm just blogging to myself?
Smoothie King AND Planet Smoothie were closed, so thought I would just not get breakfast. Luckily, one of the partners brought in bagels, and I had forgotten I had a yogurt in the fridge. For lunch I had my soup, and I also had a string cheese.
I did make it to spin class and I kicked my ass! Then I had a date where I got a glass of wine, and NO food. Pretty sure I didn't eat too much today... no candy, ooh a handful of almonds.
Today I am having 3 mini croissants for breakfast and a small yogurt. I have no idea how many calories they are... must figure that out. Then I'm going out for lunch with my girfriend. Usually at this restaurant I get the grilled cheese but I'm going to aim for something a bit healthier, since I'm doing well with eating and exercising so far this week. I bought grapes, carrots, and hummus for work snacks, but I'm not sure what I want today. Grapes I guess. And for dinner who knows.. everything i have you need to "prepare." Maybe some morning star burger or chikn?
Today is going to be a good day. I am going to make sure I do a great job!
Smoothie King AND Planet Smoothie were closed, so thought I would just not get breakfast. Luckily, one of the partners brought in bagels, and I had forgotten I had a yogurt in the fridge. For lunch I had my soup, and I also had a string cheese.
I did make it to spin class and I kicked my ass! Then I had a date where I got a glass of wine, and NO food. Pretty sure I didn't eat too much today... no candy, ooh a handful of almonds.
Today I am having 3 mini croissants for breakfast and a small yogurt. I have no idea how many calories they are... must figure that out. Then I'm going out for lunch with my girfriend. Usually at this restaurant I get the grilled cheese but I'm going to aim for something a bit healthier, since I'm doing well with eating and exercising so far this week. I bought grapes, carrots, and hummus for work snacks, but I'm not sure what I want today. Grapes I guess. And for dinner who knows.. everything i have you need to "prepare." Maybe some morning star burger or chikn?
Today is going to be a good day. I am going to make sure I do a great job!
Monday, September 6, 2010
Ahhh, 7:30am on Labor Day and I've just finished a tough workout with my trainer. Need to grab a quick shower and then go off to work! It feels good that I've already worked out.. like a foot in the right direction. I'm going to go to smoothie king for breakfast-- I plan on getting a "pineapple pleasure." It has pineapple, banana, papaya... a lot of carbs, but the good kind! if smoothie king is not open, I guess I'll go to Planet Smoothie...
Soup for lunch, and hopefully I'll be feeling good enough to go to spin class tonight at 5:30. I know I just worked out but I'd love to kick-start this week.
Maybe someone could help me with a grocery list? I don't like beans, I don't eat much meat.. ideas?
Soup for lunch, and hopefully I'll be feeling good enough to go to spin class tonight at 5:30. I know I just worked out but I'd love to kick-start this week.
Maybe someone could help me with a grocery list? I don't like beans, I don't eat much meat.. ideas?
Sunday, September 5, 2010
for some reason my weight is increasing. well, not really SOME reason. the reason is that I'm not starving myself... I am eating fatty foods and not thinking twice about it. Just weighed in at 150.4... very disappointed with that. I remember thinking that 143 was soooo big. Still do, want to be under 140. Can't believe I've let myself get this way. Its 70% food, 30% exercise. I need to start by what I've been putting in my mouth. Liquor, Sweets, Carbs.
Yesterday I had:
1 waffle (100 cals)
Caffe Misto (120 cals)
Salad with dressing (400 cals)
Fried Green Tomato (150 cals)
Cupcake (200 cals)
Frappucino (90 cals)
Wanchai Ferry Orange Chicken Skillet Dinner (600 cals)
Wine (300 cals)
1960 Cals Total--- see.... give me a break, of course I'm not losing weight. Could have had NO cupcake and HALF the dinner, and HALF the wine, I would have been satisfied for 1310.
Doesn't help that I didn't exercise today either.. UGH. I am just a mess and a half huh?
Yesterday I had:
1 waffle (100 cals)
Caffe Misto (120 cals)
Salad with dressing (400 cals)
Fried Green Tomato (150 cals)
Cupcake (200 cals)
Frappucino (90 cals)
Wanchai Ferry Orange Chicken Skillet Dinner (600 cals)
Wine (300 cals)
1960 Cals Total--- see.... give me a break, of course I'm not losing weight. Could have had NO cupcake and HALF the dinner, and HALF the wine, I would have been satisfied for 1310.
Doesn't help that I didn't exercise today either.. UGH. I am just a mess and a half huh?
Friday, September 3, 2010
Good Morning!
New followers, I appreciate you! I haven't been writing regularly and it's not for lack of trying. Every day I open my GoogleReader to see what will strike me into writing mode... Nothing ever does. It's not that YOU are bad, its that I am not here. Work has taken over my life... how many times can I say that? Well, its true.
I have worked every day for the last 2 weeks... well 19 days. Can you imagine!? No break for 19 days!!!! BUT.. I am taking off tomorrow. I am going to visit my parents in South Carolina. We'll see how that goes. Fun, maybe? Apparently there is a hurricane coming though!
My diet is blah, my exercise is blah. Honestly I am surprised I am exercising during busy season, but I tend to get at least 3 workouts in a week. 2 weights, 1 cardio. I mean, its not GREAT, but its something. We are being forcefed food at work though.. thats definitely not helping.
And I am just stuffing my face when I can... ugh. STRESS from work causes STRESS eating causes STRESS from tight pants!!!
I've been keeping a little diary of what I plan to eat in a day, I think its helping, but we'll see. Always afraid to weigh myself for this reason or that.. too much water, haven't gone to the bathroom, etc.
New followers, I appreciate you! I haven't been writing regularly and it's not for lack of trying. Every day I open my GoogleReader to see what will strike me into writing mode... Nothing ever does. It's not that YOU are bad, its that I am not here. Work has taken over my life... how many times can I say that? Well, its true.
I have worked every day for the last 2 weeks... well 19 days. Can you imagine!? No break for 19 days!!!! BUT.. I am taking off tomorrow. I am going to visit my parents in South Carolina. We'll see how that goes. Fun, maybe? Apparently there is a hurricane coming though!
My diet is blah, my exercise is blah. Honestly I am surprised I am exercising during busy season, but I tend to get at least 3 workouts in a week. 2 weights, 1 cardio. I mean, its not GREAT, but its something. We are being forcefed food at work though.. thats definitely not helping.
And I am just stuffing my face when I can... ugh. STRESS from work causes STRESS eating causes STRESS from tight pants!!!
I've been keeping a little diary of what I plan to eat in a day, I think its helping, but we'll see. Always afraid to weigh myself for this reason or that.. too much water, haven't gone to the bathroom, etc.
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