being all lovey dovey with someone is awesome.  it definitely has its good points.  but it wreaks havoc on the waistline.  i spent all of saturday and half of sunday with my new man.  Guess who didn't exercise at all this weekend.  luckily he eats pretty healthy, so its not like we're shoveling down nachos and beer all the time.... but he does take me out to eat a lot, and he does like wine, which isn't exactly low in calories.

i have a busy week at work so I'm not sure how much exercising I'll really be able to do.  I plan to go to a weight training class tomorrow morning, and i always have my packed gym bag in my car just in case.  What i really need to do is watch my eating.  I bought a lot of fruit yesterday so I need to make an effort to snack on that instead of candy/chips/etc.  I also made hummus last night.  YUM.  It is so cheap..  I don't think i could ever pay for sabra again.  Hummus is decently healthy for you... but not in large doses.  I don't need to be eating an entire can of chic peas all in one sitting.

today.... breakfast: coffee, peach, oatmeal.  lunch: salad (going out to lunch).  dinner: carrots & hummus, klondike bar.

i dont really know what to write about.  i've been so MIA because i havent been caring much about my eating. i think about food all the time... and obviously the ritalin is supposed to slow down my appetite and i've noticed that.... but it is almost like taking it has given me the right to eat more than i should... how does that work?
i've been dating someone semi seriously for about a month.  i don't think that helps either because he takes me out to dinner a few times a week... and he loves wine so we've been drinking a lot.  he is pretty healthy, so at least i don't have to worry about burgers and fries type places.
one thing i have noticed since i've been dating him is my lack of exercise.  i guess thats what happens in a new relationship.... i have been choosing to see him on my free weeknight instead of hit the gym.  my body feels awful, so something has to give.  i don't want my  muscles to atrophy while i fall in love!!  he likes to run but i'm a little afraid to go with him as i don't think i could keep up.

food wise...i was thinking today i would have a starbucks for breakfast, a small salad for lunch, a granola bar for snack, and a slice of left over pizza for dinner.  i kind of want to avoid the pizza all together, but i have 2 slices in my fridge... and i'm of the mentality that i "cant let it go bad"

i was going to write a nice little blog post but instead i got sucked into words with friends.  has anyone ever played that??  i have like 17 games going at once.  anyway... quick update.  did i tell you i worked an 82 hour week?  how is that possible, you ask?  it is not... but with the help of Mr. Ritalin, i did it.  somehow.  and i didn't cry, which is pretty much amazing.  i'm obviously slacking on exercise, due to said workload... but i think i'm on the right track.  i am currently at 143.  i am hoping to lose 9 lbs by September 15th, the end of busy season.  usually people gain weight during busy season, but I am determined to lose it!  the calorie counter says i shouldn't get to that low until October 2nd.  i guess that would be fine too... but I'm going to try.  i need to make it a priority to exercise regularly during this time of year.  that can be hard.

I had planned to do a fast 5 when i got home yesterday and all of today, in preparation for my date tonight.. but after work I went to the gym and hopped on the treadmill  I ran for 27 minutes... pretty slow, but at least I did it.  When I got home, I don't know why I ate.  At least I ate healthy... pita chips and hummus.  Well... sort of healthy!!  So now I'm torn between not even doing the Fast 5 today. Hmm not sure.

I got a prescription for ritalin yesterday.  Does anyone know much about this?  It's extended release, so I heard its not great for "loss of appetite" side effects... Although I really need it to work, so that would just be an added bonus

i finished the 10k!!  My body is not happy with me today.  And I'll definitely be wearing flats this week at work.  Wow I am proud of myself for finishing!!!  I made it in an hour and a half, which is not fast at all... but given that there were 60,000 people there, when we did walk, we were walking pretty slow!  I need to keep up the running training, but I'm also excited to get to use the elliptical again.  Not even sure when the last time I hopped on that machine... if I'm doing cardio... I'm running!!  I have many months of magazines waiting for me!

Meal Plan for this week

Monday July 4
Breakfast
	Banana	100
	Protein Bar	220
Lunch
	Willlys	526
Snack
	Chewy Bar	90
Dinner
	Bagel Thin	110
	Cream Cheese	60
	Total	1106
Tuesday July 5
Breakfast
	Slimfast	190
Lunch
	Subway	300
Snack
	Strawberries	100
Dinner
	Hummus	200
	Pita Chips	200
	Total	990
Wednesday July 6
Breakfast
	Smoothie	200
Lunch
	Lean Cuisine	300
Snack
	Carrots	100
	Apple	90
Dinner
	Glass of Wine	150
	Bagel Thin	110
	Cream Cheese	60
	Total	1010
Thursday July 7
Breakfast
	Slimfast	190
Snack
	Trail Mix	240
Lunch
	Apple	90
	Green Giant	150
Snack
	Chewy Bar	90
No Dinner
	Total	760
Friday July 8
Breakfast
	Coffee	120
Dinner
	Out	1000
	Total	1120

I'm feeling hugely fat.  Today I went into work wearing shorts and a tank top, and I walked towards a full length mirror in the bathroom.  My thighs jiggled as I walked, and it looked like fat/cellulite shaking.  It made me so sick.  Of course when I came home.. I ate M&Ms after getting a bagel topped with cheddar cheese.  I need to get this under control.  I have my 10k tomorrow.. so I need to make sure I eat normally today, but after that, I'm not going to ruin my young life being fat and ugly.  I am going to make a week long meal plan to make sure I keep track of calories... starting tomorrow.